Suddenly I believe again

Wow has been again a while and you know I'm back every few months (sometimes once a year or every 3 years or something lol)

 I know i've been posting my depressive life since forever and this is more a suicidal blog than a personal one but hey! cant believe what I'm going to say but i'm not feelin that bad anymore and here is an update. (An update for me because i'm the only person who reads this and is a reminder to me of how i felt)
 I'm again cheating on me but I lost a few pounds that makes me felt better about myself for a while, I EVEN TOOK SOME PICTURES OF MY FULL BODY ON THE MIRROR and something even more incredible I TOOK SOME NUDES THAT I DIDNT DELETE IN THE SAME SECOND THAT I TOOK IT! wow, i mean, maybe is something tiny and stupid but for me, if you've been reading this is like such a big deal so yeah, I'm feelin' hope.
 Andddd, the biggest updating that i came here to write (even if i should be studying because tomorrow is like a crazy exams day) I'M GOING TO LIVE IN THE U.S THE NEXT YEAR OMGGGGGGGGGGG, who would it tell that right? I mean, basically in my last post back in may i was about to kill myself or something and about that post, also an update: I MADE AN AMAZING GROUP OF FRIENDS IN MY NEW CAREER something that i was crying about in my last post so wow, this really was a good year- ANNNND I GOT MY DRIVER LICENCE AFTER SOOOO MANY NIGHTS OF CRYING.
I guess this is a good post, maybe the only one that i have made in forever.

 I'm feeling better and maybe life is not as bad as it seems.

Also quick update that I made a mistake and I almost got pregnant lol ME, the one that has been screaming about sexual education everywhere. Omg.

I swear, THIS IS MY YEAR and 2020 gonna be a whole new life, like i'm gonna be a new person.


BYEEEEEEEEEE x